Time for a "Real Job" :(

It's a sad but exciting time for me right now. I am on the hunt for a "real" job. I have my first interview in years in just 2 days. This will mean that I will probably have to give up the doula gig, at least being on call for births for the time being. This is the last thing in the world that I want to have to do, but at this point I have no choice. I would love to be a full-time doula, taking on 3-4 clients per month, and expanding my business. I don't know if it is because of the current economy that this isn't happening for me, my limitations in marketing my business, or just that people don't understand what it is that I offer. Either way, it doesn't make much of a difference. I haven't done a birth in more than 9 months. I am a single mother with no financial support from another parent. I don't have the financial flexibility that stay at home moms with a supportive husband do. I gave up my freedom (and expensive 1 bedroom condo with a beautiful view) by moving in with family so I could focus on my daughter while she was a baby, and then train for and build a business that would give us a better life. 3 years later this has yet to become a reality. I can't live this stressful life anymore. I need a regular income and a place of our own. So for now I am hanging up my physical doula hat, but that is where my heart still lies. Hopefully I don't get too busy with real life to let the dream die completely.